Sensual care and nightmares

I'm a little torn as to how it went with the sensual care reward. In almost 13 days I have gone without any kind of sensual care to the prisoner. Obviously I had been looking forward to finally regain the right to give Mistress' possession a little temporary pleasure. It WAS a pleasure for Mistress' long-term prisoner. No doubt about that. Great to revisit the "Twin peaks burlesque tease" while I was actually allowed to do a little bit of the special touches, I was thinking so much about during the show when I watched it live.

But I also felt that I quickly got an urge to go further, and immediately when I got that urge, I decided to put the chastity cage back on. I'm still too early in the process that I dare to take even small chances, so I guess it was for the best. This meant that Mistress’ permission to "sensual care" almost became more painful than enjoyable. I had indeed again got the feeling of how wonderful it is to look at Mistress along with sensual touches, and as such it was extra hard to have the cage back on again.

In my sleeps I had a dream, which the majority probably would describe as a fantastic dream. For me however, it was rather a nightmare. The dream was inspired by the few sensual touches Mistress had authorized me before I fell asleep. The dream suddenly goes completely wrong and Mistress' prisoner is going to places where it most definitely should not go (let’s just say the prisoner was looking at fountains, rocket firings etc.). I woke up, shaken as if I had had a death dream or something similar, but to my relief, I could check on Mistress' possession and find that it rested securely in its cage without any signs of water damage in the prison cell.

As such Mistress' merciful permission had influenced me more than I had initially anticipated. If someone said to me 3 weeks ago, that I would interpret such a “fountain dream” as a nightmare, I probably wouldn’t have believed them. Once again, I underestimated Mistress' abilities to reach much deeper than meets the eye.