My response to the video

This is what I wrote back to Mistress Bella Bellini after I had watched the fantastic video:

"Hello Mistress Bella Bellina

Thank you so much for the video that Mistress made for me. It surpassed my wildest imagination! I never dreamed that I once had to feel so humiliated because of an exhibition of my pathetic "sexual life" while feeling so extremely excited at the same time. I couldn’t possibly have asked for a better interpretation of my “sex life” and I am exceedingly happy that Mistress will guide me with homework assignments, so that hopefully once I can get a just fairly sex life. It will be fantastic if I at the same time may be able to live out my dream of being under full control of a deadly beautiful Mistress and at the same time learn how I can get a real sex life.

I love the new pet name Mistress came up with. The double meaning of 'wanker' is so perfectly apt that I'm actually proud of my new nickname. Now I can, with a short and concise name, define myself and I know that if I do not follow Mistress’ advice and guidance, then it will forever be a name that suits me. The sad scenario of my future life Mistress put up in the video and the opportunities Mistress after all/fortunately also talks about, will from today be my motivation in life. I AM a "poor pathetic little lost boy" and I KNOW it takes a very special person to change it - I also KNOW that I could never have found a better person than Mistress Bella Bellini to perform miracles on me, so that there is hope for me that the maximum I can ever achieve will not only be the ‘1 Minute Man’ scenario.

I immediately went to work with Mistress’ first homework assignment and already when I read of Mistress’ descriptions of the belly button; I could feel how a few words had made me appreciate a part of the female body in a way I have never been able to before. Thank you for teaching me something valuable new today. I've done my best to prepare myself for the next days, finding approximately 150 pictures of Mistress divine belly button. I have cropped the pictures so I only need to focus on the belly button and the surrounding area. I've uploaded the pictures to my mobile phone, and will use every moment I get, to appreciate this amazing female body part and especially Mistress Bella Bellini’s. Hopefully an intense studio work will mean that I will never forget how beautiful but not least, how important the belly button is on the female body.

Since the first time Mistress mentioned chastity training in her email to me, I have carried my CB3000 as often as I possibly could. The only times where I have not worn my CB3000 have been if I have been meeting up with friends or if I've been to the gym or doing other sport.

I know Mistress is right when she says that I cannot control myself if I see pictures or videos of Mistress and I am also afraid that I could not control myself if I’m alone in my apartment . I know I have previously written to Mistress that I have felt confident that I can control myself even without a chastity device, but Mistress Bella Bellini's knowledge about orgasm control, naturally surpasses mine by far, and as the complete Virgin Wanker I am, I'd obviously at some point lose my tempers and touch myself, although I had not gotten Mistress Bella Bellini's permission. So I am happy that I have my CB3000, which I sincerely believe will be one of my most important tools in my fight for maybe even being allowed to have sex with a real woman sometimes in the future.

I will ALWAYS wear my CB3000 when I'm alone in my apartment, so I do not fail in relation to Mistress’ treatment of me. The only exception to this rule will be when Mistress is allowing me to take it off . Therefore, I promise that I will always have my CB3000 on when I look at videos, photos, spycams or livecams with Mistress Bella Bellini or other of the models on the network. I promise I will always sleep with my CB3000 on so I do not get any wet dreams. It would be completely impossible for Mistress Bella Bellini to provide proper care of me if I could just get my release through a wet dream.

I hope that Mistress will give me permission to take of my CB3000 when I leave my apartment and may come across situations where it will be visible in my pants. I know that I'll have to work on these situations, but I hope that Mistress understand that right now I feel like a chastity virgin and therefore, needs experience in this field before I can wear it at all time.

When I saw Mistress’ video and found out that Mistress’ assignments are actually going to help me in the long run, I got so hard in my chastity. The idea that I do not know when I may be allowed just to touch myself when I feel a wankers need and the prospect that the timing of my next orgasm is 100% determined by Mistress Bella Bellini is partly excruciating partly so very satisfying, because I know that Mistress knows what’s best for me. If Mistress Bella Bellini believes that it is best for me that I suffer in my chastity device while I'm watching all Mistress videos and pictures in order for me to understand how pathetic my "sex life" used to be, then I trust Mistress Bella Bellini 100 %. I have to suffer in order to, maybe sometime in the future, be lucky enough to have sex with a real woman.

I will also immediately begin keeping a diary of all large and small things in my daily life that can get my, or as I will refer to it from now on, Mistress Bella Bellini's cock hard in my pants. Even if I eventually, through my chastity training, starts to learn to control Mistress Bella Bellini's cock, so that it does not always get hard when I am aroused, I'll write in my new journal when I feel something in my daily life turns me on. It is only fair that Mistress is informed of all my perverse thinking, so that Mistress Bella Bellini can find the right treatment for me.

Tomorrow (well actually already in about 4 hours), I go on a holiday weekend with some friends. I will take with me my laptop (not the broken Macbook, but an old fashioned PC) with all Mistress’ videos and pictures, so that I can constantly remind myself who it is that controls me. I also take with me my CB3000 and do promise, that I will at least spend the nights wearing it (to prevent wet dreams) no matter how hard it is for me to hide it for my travel mates. Should I fail and not at least have my CB3000 on at nights, I hope that Mistress Bella Bellini will have an appropriate punishment ready for me. In addition to my laptop with my vital Mistress Bella Bellini fixes, I also bring my mobile phone with internet. Hopefully there is internet coverage at the place I will stay for the weekend so that I will be able to tweet via my new Twitter account and read and reply to any emails from Mistress Bella Bellini.

I come back from my holiday weekend at Sunday evening (about 2-3 PM Canadian time) and at the moment I step into my apartment, I will allocate all my time to whatever Mistress Bella Bellini wishes. I will make more comments on some of all the great videos and pictures at Mistress Bella Bellini's page and I would also like to make a blog post about my first days in Mistress’ control if Mistress Bella Bellini wishes that.

I have also attached a picture of Mistress Bella Bellini's cock and balls locked in the CB3000 cage. It is only fair that Mistress Bella Bellini knows what it is that Mistress has to work with, and since it IS now Mistress’ property, then of course Mistress’ can always ask for pictures of it.

Finally, I once again express my deepest gratitude that Mistress will help me with my problems. I know that Mistress’ methods will be the perfect cure for me, so I will do my best to always live up to Mistress’ wishes and commands. If one day I fail to live up to Mistress’ requirements, I promise, I will immediately inform Mistress about my mistakes.

Sincerely

     Wirgin wanker"