The first time...

The first time I discovered Mistress Bella Bellini's site was on the 23th of January 2011. I immediately became completely captivated by this beautiful woman and when I read more about her background, who she was, how she spends her life and what she offered, I knew that I had to join her site immediately. And so I did.

For several weeks I had not really been able to think about anything else than this divine woman and every day I had watched videos from her archive knowing, that she was the only woman who could turn me on.

Mistress Bella Bellini offered her members that they could send in fetish requests. An offer I had not seen anywhere else. After some hesitation I contacted Mistress Bella Bellini on the 4th of February to ask her whether she'd make a video that could satisfy my fetish fantasy. I could not quite believe that just by sending an email to this breathtaking woman, I might get my own personal fetish request transformed into a real video.

In my email to Mistress Bella Bellini, I described how I had been unable to think about anyone else than Mistress the last couple of weeks. I described how I had 'failed' in my sexual life up until then and therefore still was a virgin. I also described how I get turned on by teasing and humiliating videos, which, in one way or another, refer to me personally, and that it would fulfill my dreams if Mistress Bella Bellini would make a video dedicated to me and my fetish fantasies.

Since Mistress Bella Bellini basically was the only woman I could think of, I suggested that Mistress, besides the humiliation theme, could take control over my "sex life" in the video, since she more or less already had the control. For a long time, I had had fantasies about orgasm control, and had also previously successfully completed a period of 14 days where I avoided orgasms. It was a task I set up for myself, I decided the time frame and there was only myself to be accountable to. It was an interesting experience, but it still lacked the real element of power exchange.

After I had written my email to Mistress Bella Bellini I watched on of Mistress’ videos ‘Evil Seduction’. When I reached the end of the video where Mistress presents her perfect booty and gives a small glimpse of her pussy in the most teasing manner, I simply couldn’t hold back an orgasm. I really had an intension not to go this far, since I had brought ‘orgasm control’ into play in my email, but the ending of the video was simply too exciting and I couldn’t control myself. I got an orgasm that felt fantastic, properly based on the fact that I, for the first time in my life, had revealed such personal details about my sex life to another person. But at the same time it was an orgasm, where I felt really ashamed, because I really had a true intension of not allowing myself an orgasm, before I had heard from Mistress Bella Bellini.