Draft contract

When I woke up the first thing I did was to check my in box; response from Mistress Bella Bellini - nice!

Mistress sent me a draft of a contract between us:

Among other things Mistress wanted me to clarify what my expectations were and how far I was willing to go. I had no expectations other than a hope that Mistress would make a video for me. As to how far I was willing to go I replied that I already had surrendered myself completely to Mistress and that I basically was willing to do whatever Mistress desired. The only limit I wished respected was that I could remain anonymous to everyone other than Mistress.

I described how I had experimented with sexual humiliation scenarios created in my mind and alone in my apartment. Among other things I told Mistress that I get excited about the idea that a woman would force me to take her strap-on, and as such I had experimented with dildos in various scenarios, but always as part of a humiliation from an attractive woman. I am 100 % heterosexual and do not get turned on by men, but I have absolutely nothing against gay or bisexual people. The idea, though, that a woman would exceed my own sexual boundary and humiliate me by forcing me to accept a strap-on or even make me use a dildo in different ways, satisfy my humiliation fantasies.

At Mistress' question about my pain limits, I could only reply based on the experience I had with myself. It is limited what I've tried, but the idea of CBT performed by a beautiful woman has always fascinated me and thus I wrote that I was willing to expand my limits.

Of course Mistress’ contract proposal also contained a section on how Mistress’ orgasm control would take place. I already had a CB3000 (chastity device) and had previously managed to wear it continuously for approx. 24 hours. As shown I had not really experimented that much with a chastity device, but I was glad that I actually had one, and not least that I now had someone to ‘hold the key’ to it and consequently the power over my genitals. I appear regularly in situations where a chastity device simply would not be appropriate. For instance it could be in the gym where I oddly enough do not want to shower with a plastic unit stuck to my genitals. It could also be situations where the device simply would be too visible in my pants if I need to sit down and talk with someone (I usually wear jeans, and the device IS visible when sitting down). Thus I reserved the right, to not wear the device in these situations.

I know that some will probably call me a wimp when I reserve the right to take of the chastity device in certain situations, but to me it makes no big difference emotionally if I wear the device or not in these situations. In my mind it’s still on, although not physically and instead of having to completely abandon those situations where I simply do not want to wear it, I find it better to continue my life as normal, by having the ability to take it off from time to time.

That being said, I'm willing to attempt to wear the chastity device as much as I possibly can. Being able to feel the physical wall between the ability to masturbate and not being able to, which the device represents, is greatly helping to expand my amazing experience. Thus I really feel that I’m losing something good, when I have to take it off.

To make it clear that Mistress’ now had the full control over my genitals, Mistress asked me to send a symbolic key to chastity device and I willingly ordered Mistress a bracelet, which will serve as the future symbolic key.

Mistress also reserved the right to call me nicknames when Mistress humiliates me. What person with a fetish desire to be humiliated by a beautiful Mistress would not want to be addressed with humiliating names? Certainly not I, so I humbly asked if Mistress could come up with a specific nickname for me that would be my future permanent nickname.

Mistress Bella Bellini also made it clear that from then on I was only to address Mistress as "Mistress" or "Mistress Bella Bellini" and required that I would devote myself completely to the will, pleasure and desires of Mistress Bella Bellini. In addition, of course, I would have to pay a 'cum tax' when I finally get a release. I replied that I would gladly comply with these requirements.

My first homework assignments were also set. I should create a Twitter account so I can share my thoughts and experiences and I promised that I will be active with comments on Mistress' site.

In addition, I tell Mistress a bit about my life in general, what I’m dealing with at the moment and what my thoughts about the whole situation where.