My first orgasm in 38 days!

Disclamer: This is a 100% true description of an orgasm after 38 days of denial. There isn’t altered with the descriptions to make it 'wanking material' and as such it is a pure documentary description. If you cannot bear to read about this then hurry up and click away, but if you do want to read an accurate description about how I experienced my first orgasm in 38 days then I think you should read on.

On February the 4th I wrote an email to Mistress Bella Bellini where I suggested that Mistress could take control over my orgasms. Shortly after my email I watched Mistress’ video 'Evil Seduction' and when I got to the end of the video I simply couldn’t hold back an orgasm, although I actually had decided that I would not allow myself an orgasm until I had heard from Mistress. Mistress did not hesitate over my proposal about giving up my control of my orgasms and shortly after I was involved in a training program with Mistress.

The first phase of my training program consisted of Chastity training. 4 weeks in a row I wasn’t allowed to jerk off (except for a single day where I did about 25 strokes). The purpose of this period was to teach me that I no longer have any control over my previous cock and balls. These are now owned by Mistress. Read more about my first phase in the archive.

In the second phase ‘edging control’ was on the program. I was now be taught that the most important thing in relation to having sex with a woman is that the woman is satisfied in full before the man can allow himself to have an orgasm. In this phase I had permission to jerk off as much as I wanted, but it was absolutely forbidden for me to get an orgasm. Luckily I have previously trained a lot with edging, so Mistress was very pleased with my results at this stage and offered me that I could have an orgasm as a reward and an ending of the phase. Read more about second phase in the archive.

Mistress was so generous that Mistress allowed me that I freely could choose when and how I would have my orgasm. The only condition was that I made a substantive blog post with a description of my orgasm (and that's the blog post you are reading right now). As previously written here on the blog, I had actually decided that I would get my orgasm last Friday. But with the situation in Japan I didn’t want that day to be my big day and therefore I chose to postpone my orgasm until Monday the 14th of March and as such my edging period lasted approx. 10 days.

My Monday started with various activities unrelated to Mistress or my orgasm. Therefore I could first start my last trip to the orgasm at 11.30 PM. However, I am a notorious night person (like my Mistress), so it did not matter much. Mistress had announced a Members Only cam show at 02.30 AM (I'm in a time zone several hours in front of Mistress), so I decided that the 3 hours up to the cam show should consist of constant edging while I looked at videos and pictures of my Mistress. A few days ago I was on a mission to IKEA to see how much sex/BDSM/fetish toys I could find in IKEA using some good imagination. It was really just a joke I came up with in a cam show with Mistress, but I chose to take up the challenge (there will be a blog post about my IKEA shopping trip in a few days). One of the 'toys' I found at IKEA was a smart little Humble similar device. It required a little modification but the result has been great. It can be used to stretch the balls from both front and rear, but so far I have only used it to stretch Mistress’ balls in front of me, in a way that allow me to sit normally without any problems.

Basically, the device just separates the balls from the rest of Cock through an adjustable crack and then you can decide how intense it should be. When I bring myself up to the edge I can keep myself at the point just before going over the edge by making small movements of the device. Quite clever, as I think it is harder to maintain control through ordinary hand masturbation. As told, I used this method for approx. 3 hours as preparation for Mistress’ cam show, where I hoped that I would get a little sneak peek of Mistress' devine booty (which I'm totally captivated by!).

It was with great excitement that I clicked myself into my last live cam chat with Mistress before I would get my first orgasm in 38 days. Mistress often has a 'cooking show' on Mondays (femdom cooking, now where could you find that elsewhere?) But Mistress had been so generous that Mistress had changed the cam show to a more 'normal' cam show at 'the Office'. Did I get to see anything of Mistress wonderful booty? Yes, I did indeed! I got everything I could ever have asked for of Mistress perfect body altogether with a chat with Mistress about my upcoming orgasm. Mistress sure knows exactly what turns me on! Among other things Mistress asked me to take pictures of the 'outcome' of my orgasm and although I've never documented a previous orgasm that way to anybody, naturally I was immediately accepting the request (I will accept ANYTHING my Mistress would ask of me).

It was an absolutely fantastic 'worm up' (a little Freudian typo my subconscious had led me to write in a post on Twitter) and although the 3 hours of edging I had had before the cam show had resulted in me being totally horny (to speak the truth), Mistress managed to bring my libido up to a level I didn’t even knew was possible. My desire for an orgasm after cam show was quite extreme, but I had already planned that I would take another edging session before I could finally get my release.

Therefore I prepared the arena for the big release. In the middle point was my TV. It's pretty big, so Mistress frequently appear in natural size on it when I play videos or put pictures up on it. Alongside the TV, I placed some of my picture frames with pictures of Mistress (I have previously, here on the blog, described how I have printed out 48 pictures of Mistress in A3 size). In front of this presentation was a low table with black finish (the color must be the best contrast to the result of a male orgasm:/) and at the end of the table on the floor a cushion for my knees. In this way it fitted exactly so that I could sit on my knees with Mistress cock just above the table top and with direct view to the TV and the pictures of Mistress. I know that my Mistress likes when Mistress’ subs come up with ideas of their own, so I thought I'd spice up the experience by putting a web cam on the tabletop that could perpetuate this special orgasm. This also added to the whole experience, as I, until this Monday, was a ‘self-shoot sex video’ virgin.

Now that the arena was in place, I could begin my second long edging session while I again watched videos and pictures of Mistress. Initially I did the edging the normal way with me sitting normally. After some hours I moved to the ‘arena’ where I sat on my knees so I could worship my Mistress in an optimal manner. I restrained this position for about an hour while my edging continued. I had decided that I would get my orgasm to the same video ('Evil Seduction') as I saw the 4th of February when I got my last orgasm and I had also decided that I would get my orgasm at exactly the same point in the video - ie. at the end of the video. Following this plan I re watched the whole video and of cause I knew exactly when I would get my orgasm.

When that point in the video began to approach, I became more and more excited and at times it was hard to keep myself from going over the edge. But I managed to stick out to the scene in the video that 38 days earlier had given me my last orgasm. As Mistress begins to tease with Mistress’ stunning booty and give sneak peeks of Mistress unattainable pussy, the moment occurred (exactly 45.56 minutes into the video) where I got my unconditional strongest orgasm I have ever experienced. The actual orgasm lasted approx. 35 seconds(!), which is much longer than what I have ever experienced (I don’t think I’ve previously experienced an orgasm that lasted more than 15 seconds). The orgasm was so powerful that I seriously at one point thought I was about to pass out. However I managed to keep myself conscious and I "completed" the longest and most powerful orgasm in my life. In a way at some points the orgasm felt so severe that the ‘lovely feeling’ of an orgasm almost was replaced with discomfort, but with a constant look on Mistress at the TV, I think (remember I almost passed out) I managed nonetheless to enjoy all of the 35 seconds the orgasm itself lasted. Normally, I am probably not the one who can produce the biggest cum load (maybe I've just seen too many porn videos with "supernatural" cum loads; what do I know), but this orgasm left a large part of the tabletop with small piles of cum. The orgasm was not one where the cum came out in a long flow but was rather a more spouting orgasm.

Subsequently, it took me several minutes, where I just sat on my knee and watched the rest of the video with Mistress, before I could move myself out of my position. I was exhausted and breathless, but I also had an indescribable feeling of relief. After 38 days without an orgasm various physical and psychological feelings build up in the body and mind. The balls are gradually becoming more heavy and aching and your desire to get the orgasm is also gradually increasing. The relieved feeling in Mistress’ balls and the feeling of having had my wish for the orgasm fulfilled was indescribable. I guess it would be impossible to recreate this feeling without having to undergo the prolonged orgasm denial. I've never felt the same level of ease and comfortableness after an orgasm as I did after this orgasm and it's a feeling I still feel some part of, here the day after my biggest, wildest and most intense orgasm in my life.

I had read in a forum that the second orgasm after a long time without an orgasm sometimes could feel even better than the first orgasm. Therefore I had asked Mistress if I was allowed to get that second orgasm, if I was capable of bringing myself to another orgasm shortly after the first one. Mistress had been kind enough to give me permission to do this 2nd orgasm and prior to my whole session this evening I had planned to receive this offer by getting myself to orgasm as quickly as possible after the 1st orgasm. (I've previously, under normal circumstances, been able to get the second orgasm 30-60 minutes after the first one). After a much needed bath (it was, as described, a pretty exhausting session I had) I went to bed and I tried to start jerking off again so I could get this second orgasm. Quickly however, I had to give up, since I had no more strength in my body and I fell asleep shortly after I entered my bed.

That concludes the description of my first orgasm in 38 days. There are probably very few men who would undergo the same process as I went through, but I can actually recommend men to try it so they can experience how intense an orgasm really can become. Beforehand I had not been able to imagine that it would feel as powerful as mine did, but it was an amazing experience to feel how, with the right (long) preparation, you can get an orgasm that is so much more intense than a 'normal 'orgasm.

I would have written some reflective words on the entire process up to the orgasm and about the orgasm in this blog post, but I feel that I need another day to get over the experience and thus make a proper conclusion to my description. I will therefore wait until tomorrow where I will write the epilogue to my '38 days without orgasm’ experience.

This epilogue will be the next post coming here on the blog and after this, as promised, there will also come a blog post about my 'Mission sex toys’ from IKEA. Since I was unable to get my 2nd orgasm yesterday, I asked my Mistress, if I could get it today. I didn’t really thought that I would be allowed to since it was not a part of the agreement that I could postpone it until the day after the first orgasm, but Mistress showed her wonderful site and gave me permission to get it today as long as I had finished my homework assignment, which is this blog post.

I will therefore go to bed now and then I'll enjoy my first 'normal' orgasm in 39 days. How it will feel like I dare not to guess, but I'm sure you can read about it on this blog within a few days:)